Hot, Hot, Hot!

Yes!! Wow! It's turning out to be a hot July! For starters, our yoga space, Align Yoga, is open for business!! What an incredible journey it's been! Not only do we have HOT classes, but we also offer Vinyasa Flow and Restorative Meditation, as well as a beautiful boutique marketplace with a variety of yoga apparel and gear, healthy snacks and beverages, and my very own Indriya Jewelry.

Align Yoga front desk

In addition to the studio opening, I'm excited to announce the release of the book Big Gal Yoga! I had the pleasure of shooting the cover photo last year and it will finally be out on July 25th! More exciting news, I'm also collaborating with One Fire Festival to create a smoothie menu for their 4-day festival this November! Check out the recipe for the One Fire Smoothie.

So, lots to share, but as for the blog, I'm afraid this will have to be a short one. As you can probably imagine, I've been absolutely consumed with what's right in front of me: a beautiful miracle of a yoga practice space which I have the honor of being a co-founder!

Next month I think will be a big month for processing some of what's in the mix. I want to introduce you to some of the awesome yogis that have been inspiring me, I want to brainstorm with you, I want to open and expand into the potential that is presenting itself exponentially as a result of "taking the leap and growing wings on the way down".

Protea

Everything feels really big right now! People are making moves—not only me—many people I know. I mean BIG moves. A total shedding of previous life. A new beginning across the Pacific ocean. Everyone around me seems to be at the very least entertaining thoughts towards massive shifts.

What's going on for you? Are you in the midst of life altering around you? Are you moving the mountain or is the mountain moving you?

I'm with you! ♡

Adding Grace to Injury

daisy with dewdrops

Opportunities to learn and grow come in all forms. This past month, mine came in the painful form of physical injury due to an abnormal lump in my left knee which became inflamed and even had me in a wheelchair for a couple days! Thankfully there is no damage to my tendons or ligaments and, for my own peace of mind, though it was aggravated in a yoga class, it is not a "yoga injury". I simply knelt on it. Crazy, right?

There are many lenses through which to view injury, many things to ponder. I'll share with you some of the things that have been running through my mind as I deal with mine. This is going to be a long one, but well worth the introspection.

First, I'd like to emphasize the importance of learning from all situations, even and perhaps especially from the unfortunate ones. When you encounter an undesirable event, you can let it take you down or you can let it inform you. Oftentimes people are more inclined to be grateful for the positive things in their lives, thankful for the blessings that the Universe bestows, but end up overlooking the gifts that are available in the midst of the hard situations. They turn to prayer to overcome struggle, sometimes even taking on the approach of "rising above" hardship without reflection or gratitude for what the struggle is offering them. Of course, prayer and a positive attitude are important, I would say vital, to healing and moving past problems. I seek to integrate that with gratitude for the struggle itself. 

 

GRATITUDE FOR THE EXPERIENCE OF INJURY

I recognize and am grateful for my strength and balance. When you're injured, it's easy to focus on how limited you are, especially when it renders you immobile. For me, having to operate mostly on one leg, I was so, so grateful for the strength and balance I had in that one leg that allowed me to compensate temporarily. I have my yoga practice to thank for that.

I am grateful for the experience of being incapable. Have you ever been physically incapable? I not only had to come to terms with this for a short time, but I also had to accept assistance from others. For someone like me, very independent, this took some adjustment. For two days, I was also in a wheelchair, which gave me immense appreciation for the struggles of the disabled who navigate the world from a completely different vantage point.

To be grateful for my strength and balance as well as the experience of being incapable, I must also express gratitude for my overall health. I've been very fortunate throughout my life in not having dealt with many personal illnesses (knock on wood). I have always been thankful and aware of this, but I recognize the value more as I deal with acute pain.

This experience allows me to relate to knee pain and limitations. As a yoga instructor, many of my students have knee pain or use yoga to rehabilitate after knee surgery. I would not have wished for my injury, but while I'm going through it, I can start to understand first-hand what it can be like for my students so that I can better relate to their pain. I have also been able to get a tiny glimpse into the pain of two of the most important people in my life, my fiancé and my grandmother, who have both undergone multiple knee surgeries. This deepens my compassion for them.

This is a great exercise in adjusting expectations. We had a guest coming to visit from Bosnia who I met for the first time the day after I injured myself. In preparing for her 3-week visit, I planned a variety of activities for us—doing yoga, going hiking, exploring San Francisco. The whole landscape of her visit changed in an instant. I could barely walk for nearly two weeks and much of my time was spent in pain and icing/elevating my leg. The injury became somewhat of a focus for the majority of her time here. I couldn't even be the hostess to her that I'd intended to be. She was so easy-going about having to alter her own expectations, extremely gracious and very caring towards my situation. Ultimately, we had a great time just hanging out and getting to know each other.

I recognize that I am in a different state of mind than that of past injuries. I've only had three occurrences that I would consider injuries. When I broke my wrist snowboarding, a back injury, and now a knee injury.

When I broke my wrist, it was very tangible thing. My focus was on healing the broken bone. I was doing a lot of yoga and practiced almost daily with my cast on. I increased my calcium and Vitamin C intake. I was optimistic and extremely determined to heal as quickly and efficiently as possible. The bone healed a week earlier than the doctor predicted.

The back injury was much murkier. I don't have a clear incident to explain it; it could have been too much home practice, experimenting with deep backbends without warming up properly and pushing the limits of my knowledge and flexibility, it could have been a photo shoot where I did several backbends only on one side, it could have been my Vinyasa teacher training when I came out of a handstand one leg at a time, felt a shooting pain and could hardly get out of bed the next morning. My guess is it was all of the above. At the time I was also reverberating emotionally from a painful breakup. I was not focused on healing so much as "putting the pain behind me". Was it any coincidence I created a back injury for myself? The limitations from this injury lasted several years. I identified with it. It became an exemption from depth, physically and emotionally.

The knee injury occurs at a time when I am wide open to learning and gleaning all that I can from my own situations in order to share my experience. I can accept this. I can experience this. I can learn from this. And I can heal from this.

 

INTENTIONS FOR RECOVERING FROM INJURY

I choose to avoid becoming identified with this injury. As cited above, I have first-hand experience in strongly identifying with being injured. The back injury became a kind of persona or some badge of experience. It was "my back injury". I took ownership of it (which is different than taking responsibility for it). While I'm currently tending to "my" knee injury, I will be happy to shed ownership once my body has healed.

Reject your sense of injury and the injury itself disappears.
— Marcus Aurelius

This is an important thing to consider for yourself and can pertain to many areas of life. How many "injuries" do we carry around needlessly? For physical injuries, oftentimes when the body heals, there is still some echo of it that remains. We favor a certain side or attach ourselves to our former limitations. What would happen if we could recognize the imbalance, consciously release the "old injury", and correct our course? How might we compensate for imbalances or "injuries" in other areas of life, and how can we move towards correcting them?

I'm looking forward to renewing a more focused attention to my yoga practice and different areas of my body. I've been practicing yoga for more than 15 years, and I'll admit, I've gone through phases where my routine practice has become, well, routine. Part of why I liked participating in yoga competitions was the renewed sense of focus and attention that returned to my practice when I had a "goal". Recovering from an injury offers the same opportunity. My presence and attunement to my body's needs will be heightened.

I am determined to recover well. In repairing my knee, my intention is to address my entire body holistically. Everything in the body is connected, so every area will need to be considered as I aim to return full mobility to my knee. This involves hip-opening, stretching my groin and hamstrings, targeting tightness in my IT bands, continuing to keep my spine strong and flexible, improving my core strength, keeping my shoulders flexible, etc. This also includes making sure my diet is aligned with healing my body from the inside out, tending to my gut health, including things in my diet that are beneficial for joint health, etc.

 

These are some of things I've been contemplating while nurturing myself through this. Right now, I'm filtering my understanding through the lens of physical injury, but perhaps you can translate some of this to other areas of your life.

Please feel free to email me insights from your own experience or with questions! ♡

Fresh Water Spring

March is such a wonderful time of year! This is the month when we usher in Springtime (March 20th), and this year I'm personally sowing seeds for a full expansion, a full bloom, especially with our soon-to-be yoga studio, Align Yoga, in the works!

Standing Mermaid Pose

Astrologically, we are right in the middle of Pisces, which is a water sign represented by two fish. To me, this is a time to go with the flow, so if you feel yourself swimming upstream, take a minute to assess the current and see if you can better "streamline" your efforts.

It's no surprise that water consciousness is acknowledged during the month of March. Clean water is the most precious resource on earth—the life giver. In California, the drought caused us all to be even more mindful of the ways in which we depend on water. After extensive downpours this winter, the pressure is off a little bit, but not everybody has such easy access to fresh water. World Water Day on is about taking action to help with the more global water crisis. There are many organizations that you can contribute to or get involved with: Charity Water, Water Aid and 109 World, just to name a few. Water Aid also has a Girl Strong initiative promoting access to water, sanitation and hygiene for women and girls.

Fresh drinking water is not the only kind that life depends on; our little buddies in the ocean and lakes always need us to look out for their delicate ecosystems too. Surfrider Foundation is one of the leading environmental water protectors.

Take an opportunity this month to reflect on WATER.

FOR THOUGHT...

Most of us don’t think twice when we turn on the faucet to grab to get a glass of water or use the hose to water our gardens. We take for granted that the water will be flowing and that it will be clean and safe to drink. Those simple acts are made possible by an incredible chain of events that links our entire state with our oceans and drives some of the key environmental issues of our time. Clean drinking water is one of the most rare and precious resources on the earth, yet we typically use it with little regard. Following a drop of our water from its origin, through its use to its disposal reveals an expensive and often wasteful journey and makes it clear we could be using water more wisely. Fortunately, we can alter this pattern by using the classic mantra reduce, reuse and recycle to fundamentally reduce our water consumption and solve ocean pollution issues at the same time. (via Surfrider)